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Foxy feels like an ass. I think I missed a couple of memo's because I am lost on some things that were so simple before. I missed the one about my being able to ready peoples minds, and the one that I am supposed to be "ok" with anything and everything. The latter doesn't bother me too much- I've become pretty easy going over the past couple of months and I think I take things pretty well. It's when there's a double standard involved that gets me upset. The first one doesn't bother me either except for the fact that I hate being the last one to know things, especially when it involves someone close to me.

Meh, other than that, not much else going on. I'm at my parent's house watching "Pride or Prejudice" and drinking a good 'ol Mike's Hard Lemonade (Lime - YUM!) and nibbling on a super delicious brownie that I made last night. ^_^

Mmm, X said he had a blog thing on myspace.com, but I can't find it. Bummer. I found a WeaponX, but this guy is from California and looking for a serious relationship, so it's not him.

I LOVE this movie! It's so happy and nice. ^_^ So yeah, life is going pretty good. School and work are going great. Mmmm *droopy eyes* I've become a happy and tired Foxy.

Check out my new "Recommended Listening" list!!! And even more check out the music!!

TTYL! *luvs*
FoxyLady

Foxy is really good at messing things up and getting people upset at her. I don't know why I do it. Maybe it's something like Minne Driver's character in Gross Pointe Blank, when she was talking about being some sort of masochist because she kept doing things that made her feel worse. I hurt some friends today. so that's kinda shitty.

So i'm watching Garden State right now. I tend to watch movies that reflect me in some way. I'm kinda feelings like Natalie Portman's character. I was told like I resemble that character almost to the point where the character could have been written after me. There are so many things that she says thru out the movie that i have said. I can see the resemblance to a point- she's more outgoing and honest about thinkgs than i am. :( I think she goes thru some changes during the movie and i think that's cool. its something i think i'm doing right now.

i got a new shirt today which is absolutly awesome. i'm going to wear it to school on monday. yeay!

So i finally have a Polyphonic Spree cd. I've been wanting something happy and this IS happy. They did a song for the Eternal Sunshine movie. I suggest checking them out. They can't help but lift anyones spirits.

OMG it's so warm in this house! Last time i walked by the thermostat, it was 76*! That was at about 11:00ish. I've got my window wide open and my blinds up to try and chill my room down, but it's been a fairly warm night tonight so it's a slow process. Crazy!!

Alrighty, well I'm going to take off. It's pretty late and it's already taken me about an hour to write this because i keep getting side tracked. ^^ Have a great night/morning everyone!
~FoxyLady

I can't decide whether I want to watch the Nine Inch Nails dvd until I fall asleep or play games until I fall asleep. I can't decide. I've been thinking too much lately so I want to do the one that won't make it easy for my mind to wander. Maybe I'll do both. ^_^ We'll see.

Sleep good!
~FoxyLady

Wow, three entries in one day. I'm on a roll huh? I guess it's because I feel like "this" is the only place right now that I can say anything to and it will listen. Well not the only place. I had a great conversation with a friend tonight who was really there for me when I needed someone to talk to. I hate the fact that I'm so up and down right now. I'm not as "on the ground" as I'd like to think sometimes. I have come a long way, but I have a bit more to go.

So I've clocked in like 3 hours on TetraMaster today. I got all my homework done early so I had extra time to play. That game is so addicting. I think I'm gonna play when I'm done and fall asleep playing it.

So yeah I'm gonna go now. Have a nice night. I'm hopping I don't have puffy red eyes in the morning. >< grr.

luvsluvs
FoxyLady

So I've been on this BIG Nine Inch Nails kick lately (like huge) and I agree with whoever it was a couple years ago that gave Trent the "Sexiest Man Alive" award. Yeah he really is sexy.

Here are some pics that I found of him that I like. I unfortunately couldn't find any clear ones of him performing. :(




Now what is not sexy about that? *^_^* yay

I used to think he was scary and the devil but after I gave his music a chance and did some reading up on him, my views drastically changed. I'm so going to go to a NIN concert some day. I'd like to go to one of the shows on his upcoming tour for his new album "With Teeth." Check it out at www.nin.com

K i'm gonna go play TetraMaster.
*luvs*
~Foxy

man i'm bored. >_<' *sad face*

Hey all! Sorry it's been a while since I last did an entry. I've been a busy girl! ^_^ I went and visited my Nana (my Dad's mom). She's been living in one of those assisted living places (>_<) and one of the other old ladies got pissed and punched my Nana in the eye. Isn't that horrible? I couldn't help but laugh (of course I felt bad for laughing) but isn't that just bad? Anyways... so the two of them were seperated and the next day the other old lady hit my Nana in the other eye. Ahh!

So we moved her to this SUPER nice place that cost $1500 a month! It's SOO nice tho and I've never seen such nice nurses- the nurses at the other place you just knew hated their job- the facility wasn't nice and it was just a bad arrangement for everyone there. But this place is really small, one person per room (it's like a studio apartment thing) and it's just so nice. She's so much better off here. There's more one on one care there. ^_^ Oh yeah and her eyes are doing just fine. Altho she lost her glasses yesterday because she accidently took a nap in someone else's room and left them there, but she couldn't remember which room she was in. Lol. She's so silly. <3

WeaponX made me an awesome cd for my trip which made the trip a ton better. Good music makes all the difference in the world I think. It's take you to a happy/safe place no matter where you are or what you are doing. So thanks X!!

So anyways other than that- things are going good. I'm doing a lot better since Thursday. I don't really know what to say... other than I really, honestly am fine. ^_^

Well I'm going to go find a snack!
Have a good night y'all!!
~Foxy

I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned this before, but I really like the movie "The Count of Monte Cristo" a lot. I felt some sort of connection with the movie. Edmond goes thru 16 years of hell and torment, and in the end he lives happily ever after (at least the newest movie). This used to be what I watched when I wanted/needed hope. Hope in anything and everything really.

The ending was such a comfort to me knowing that after 16 years, a person can have a happy ending. The actual concept time (for example- the 16 years in the movie), I don't think I ever actually understood or fathomed. Maybe I didn't think I would ever be in a similar situation (like being torn/taken away from the one(s) you care about for a unknown span of time). I think I just put too much faith in HOPE that it would never happen to me. I should have knocked on wood because I am now faced with that.

I do know that it's for the best and only good can come out of it. But then I also know that good can come if this didn't happen. I'm torn from letting go, like I should, and fight for what I believe in and what I feel. This is the sort of situation where I feel most like shelling up completly to this and trying to forget about it. But this is too big and important to me to do that. So I'm going to just go on and be supportive and as put together as I can be.

If you told me 6 months ago, I would be in this situation- I would dissagree and be so upset that you even mentioned it, I'd probably want to cry and not talk to you for a while. But like I said, this is what's best. We have to do what's best for ourselves in life- that's just what you have to do.

Anyways... there are a few songs that kinda show how I feel right now. (These are in now particular order)

Before The Dawn
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
I am nothing more than to see you there
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

If only night can hold you where i can see you, my love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

somehow i know that we cant wake again from this dream
it's not real, but it's ours

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn


Anywhere
Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

And All That Could Have Been
Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here

Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
Were never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me

Well goodnight all-
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At least I think that's how the quote goes. I'm trying to quote Legolas from LOTR Two Towers movie before the elves arrive right before the battle at Helm's Deep.

Anyways- I talked and now I feel a lot better. Talking and communicating is such a great thing.

I played Boggle with my family tonight cuz it was family night. ^_^ That was fun. I actually didn't know they were playing so I came in the game late and I lost really bad. Hehe it's ok tho because it was still fun.

Well I'm going to go to bed now. Nite nite everybody!

*loves*
FoxyLady